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[12 Mar 2006 | Sunday]

deafening silence so loud. i cringe. shiver. i want to scream your name i want to pull you close i want to ask you why i want to cry. i see you before me and want to look away close my eyes and forget. but I can't. yet. i am shaking thoughts fill my mind flow like blood through my veins and my chest tightens to keep them from exploding from my mouth. i am scared to see you more afraid to see you go so my eyes hold you until you fade into the colors of distance a blurry vision of what I once could see so clearly out of sight but still i feel you. i want to scream your name i want to pull you close i want to ask you why i don't want to cry relax breathe the words escape eyes open you are gone.