love and death

who says we have to find the one we will "spend the rest of our lives with"? if living life means constantly growing and learning and changing, then isnt who we are right now bound to change over the next 2 or 7 or 15 or 60 years? how do we know who we will be and what our needs will be in the future? cant we we just focus on being where and with who we belong with right now, enjoy each other, serve our purpose for sharing this time in our lives, learn from each other and grow accordingly... and then, when we find we are stagnant, we can accept that we are no longer meant to be together and part knowing that we have made each other better people and hope our next partnerships are of the same great value? i think that if we looked at life and partnerships this way, we wouldnt miss out on the great relationships we could and should be having - for fear of making the mistake of wondering if we are "truly meant to be together forever".

and when people say "they died before their time", i disagree. they died because it WAS their time. people die when they stop living. when they stop growing and learning. but they also die when they stop giving. when they stop teaching. or they die TO teach. one person's death brings lessons to many. lessons that would go unlearned if the dead were still alive...

live each day for the day. be who you are right now. learn your lessons. give of yourself so others may learn from you. teach and be taught.

that's life.

EFF!

bitch.

over easy

breakfast surprises
not dressed
in decor paper
and glitter bows
the way surprises
are supposed to be
for me
they come
stuffed inside
black lead balls
and drop
no bounce; no roll
and lie
and lie
and lie
i want to feel your
presence
so i shake
and poke
and try to guess whats inside
the closer i get
the deeper you hide.
why cant we find
one occasion
that fits
one occasion
that sits
well
balloons and bells
were never my forte
either
so we breathe
and lack excitement
fold ourselves into our lapse
of expression
share depression.

good morning...

how punctual.

your words are my sentence.

storybook romance

somehow tonight i understand the term "storybook romance" more than ever as our heroes, heroines, villains and thieves fill each page with tumultuous passion and daring escapades all in the name of love. we vie for the hero to find his beloved. we wait (not so) patiently for happily ever after. we cry and get angry. we weep with despair and celebrate the triumphs. we hope and dream and bite and scream. we ride the twists and turns and never know how it will end until we read the final chapter.

... unless we skip to the final page.

and that just ruins everything.